Thanks everyone,
Well you were right. My first week was one of the hardest things I have ever been through in my life. I cried a lot when I got home and am feeling really really frustrated. While I realize I have to get over my fear of kids I do not know how to get more patient with them. I suppose it would come in time, but right now I just do not have to heart to play with them or "watch" them do a cartwheel. I guess my problem is I want to be helping their mothers and not doing puzzles with them.
However I do not quit and will be trying very hard to stick through this. I know it will get easier, but it might require me quitting my other job at the mall. Working 10 hour days is sapping me more then I thought it would and I have to think of my health first.

Ill keep you guys in the loop,
Jessica

<font color=blue>The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain</font color=blue>
~Seether and Amy Lee