Many years ago I destroyed my appearance because I thought I was ugly. It doesn't make much sense to me now, but it is too late and I'll never get back what I destroyed. I thought I was protecting myself from being hurt, but in reality I was just hurting myself. No one ever really said anything about how I'd changed, I guess everyone just put it down to depression.

I hope you can find a way to live more comfortably with yourself and not be hurt by other people's comments.