i feel exactly the same as you fragile. i don't understand why i should stop. okay, so i get scars. but if i am okay with them, then what is the problem? the ones on my arms bother me a bit now that i am going to be working as a therapist... so i say i won't cut on my arms anymore... but i still don't wanna stop. i control how deep they are... so if i am okay with it, it works for me, and it doesn't get out of control, then why stop? the only reason i can think of is because it's 'bad.' yes, by the books it is 'bad.' we are not supposed to do it. unfortunately i don't care what is said, it isn't going to make me stop. i am not even at the point where i wish i could. i don't know, i am just doing what gives me a release. my therapist understands this. he knows that i will not stop until i am ready... and right now i'm not ready. he says that he is concerned, but understands why i don't want to stop.