I'm sorry you ate struggling so much with this. In my understanding, emdr goes through stages. First toy babe Rio babe a strong foundation in coping skills, and work on a "safe place". Then you move on to the processing stuff. I did a boot if it with a t a few years ago. It took us forever to get to the processing stage because i doesn't have the coping skills down... unfortunately, I moved or of the region before I could get vertu far worn if. I hope you can talk to your t about what is going on for you with it.