Im really sorry that you have been put through such hell I know you feel scattered right now.... But sit down and write out your options, and what options you have as far as income and insurance etc. Can you see your T sooner rather than later (if you have one) maybe get in to see your Pdoc and maybe a med change or an adjustment or addition could help you with all this over the top stress.

There is nothing wrong with reaching out for help when needed even if that means going inpatient..