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Originally Posted by barnum.e
Great explanation!!! I am not an accredited expert myself, but I have 37 years experience as me and my struggles. Everyone makes mistakes, especially growing up, I continued making mistakes and truly did not understand why. Some people have told me that I use my illness as an excuse. I will reply, "An excuse for what, being so miserable that I constantly want to kill myself." I wanted a family, career, vacations in beautiful places, what I have right now is doctor appointments every week, medications, living alone, and a stray cat that visits me sometimes. Sorry if I got off subject, I needed to vent and this brought it out. Thank you.
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I'm sorry my reply served as a trigger for you. I did not mean it to be. I said nothing about making mistakes. I realize everyone makes mistakes. I make mistakes and I have no doubt I will make mistakes until the day I die. I got chronologically older never feeling as though I was worthy to live, let alone have "vacations in beautiful places." I see a therapist now to help me with my sense of self-worth, and I do this so I don't act upon my suicidal ideation. I won't post here again, but I will say one last thing that I hope helps. Just because someone says something like 'using an illness as an excuse' doesn't mean you have to agree -- or even listen -- to what that person says. My mental illness is agonizing. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.