I know what you feel, i also tried to commit suicide and survived, never tried again and its been years but i still have no reasons to live. I've lost the will to live and im not sure il ever get it back. But what keeps us alive? Maybe its like Indefatigable said and we are still alive so we can find a reason to live, to get back our will to live, but i don't know if that day will ever come. I really hope it does, for both os us.