I'm right there with you FLG. You're not alone. I am in withdrawal hell and have 10 more months to go before I'm off. I have all the SX as you. My husband took over the cooking 1 year ago. Good for you for hanging on. The corner will turn. You can do this. I'm white knuckling it, but determined, too. I kindled so my withdrawal is similar to yours. Keep posting, know there is someone going through the same thing.

My family also doesn't understand why I can't "be there" like I used to be. I can take my kid's to appointments, but as far as extended family, impossible. It is hard for people, unless they've been in our shoes, to understand the agony of benzo withdrawal. It is another invisible pain.