In my humble opinion, I'd make an appointment with a psychiatrist & therapist immediately. Sounds like, you do have major anger issues. I wouldn't allow others to diagnose me or self diagnose myself. I'd definitely take some of psychcentral's online tests & share the results with a professional. I would share your potential change of heart to your union rep & have him represent you in finding a resolution. That's just me. *big warm friendship hugs* Definitely keep posting & sharing your thoughts. There are alot of wonderful experienced people here to help you.