THIS FREAKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I should have known not to try and quit on the first, the first of the month is always stress time for me, paying bills and watching my damn checkbook dwindle. This month is especially bad because my electric bill is going up having to use a/c and my car battery died yesterday so i had to get a new one and now my damn car registration is due this month too and there's no way I can pay my %#@&#! internet bill that I put off last month thinking I could pay it this month and now there's these unexpected expenses so I don't know what will happen to my internet YET again. Its my %#@&#! fault for not being able to quit smoking until now, they're such a waste of money and got me into this mess so I'M SO %#@&#! FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I WON'T SMOKE OVER THIS, CAN'T SMOKE BECAUSE NOW I'M REALLY BROKE.......sooo frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With myself.............and I can't get my instant relief from a cigarette. I won't do it. I just won't. I have like $10 left in my acct and thats for gas in my car. I might find a way to get the net paid, but its the only thing I can get away with not having, even though I'll miss PC something terrible.