I'm surrounded by people who feel better about themselves because I'm miserable now, it seems there are people who just love seeing others fall. I'm going home tomorrow, and wonder how my mom will react, haven't seen her in 3 months.

I just can't sit here doing nothing, I'd sink even deeper, I need to take better care of myself. I'm my worst critic when it comes to my own appearance.

It just amazes and saddens me as to how the times have changed for me.