Thanks for replying Cocinella, sad to hear how it's making you feel like that, has it been so constantly? And how did your pdoc explain the Lamictal cause of it? I don't really feel flat at all times, I'm still mostly positive, but I don't have those days I used to just dance to songs in my room and do everything as if I was in a hurry.

I also would like to add that I'm not even sure I have Bipolar disorder, because my pdoc initally did diagnose me with depression (after a failed suicide attempt), but after she switched me to Lamictal and quit the antidepressant, she hasn't told me about any kind of further diagnosis, nor have I really asked because of how I guess I don't want to care. The only reason I guessed I was BP was when I read Lamictal is used for BP. I've always suspected I had it, but now I'm more and more sure that this stuff people who actually have the disorder is not what I'm really about, maybe I just have that kind of personality... and now I seem to have grown up..