I have been making small steps in trying to reemerge from being a hermit. People annoy me. I've been experiencing alternating waves of sadness, apathy and anger. Mostly anger, when I have to deal with people. I have family members telling me that I need to go to Vegas and have fun. And I am gritting my teeth in order not to snap at them because they have no idea what the hell they're talking about. I can't think about anything else. But I think that even feeling anger is better than the crushing apathy and despair.