Flat effect was a huge deciding factor that lead to me dumping my meds.


No, I'm definitely not suggesting you quit yours, just trying to convey how much I absolutely hated my watered down version of life while medicated.


I mean at first it was FANTASTIC!

My mind was quiet, I was calmer, but in the end I didn't recognize myself and didn't like that version of me one bit.


Guess it was just way too unfamiliar, I've been "extreme" my whole life, suddenly finding myself in the middle caused a huge identity crisis and fuelled my self-loathing, which I certainly didn't need as I already struggle with these issues due to my BPD...


Anyway, I didn't mean to ramble, just wanted you to know I get it. And as mentioned above, speak to your pdoc about this, hopefully they're the helpful sort and will see that you find your passion once more.