Feeling sad and stuck today. Mom backed out of my dr.'s appt. which was to be at 1:30 this afternoon. The plan was to go to the dr. for my regular check-up, and then to ask about going back on antidepressants. I wanted my mom to be there with me for moral support. I know that's been the plan for at least the past week. So, then today she gets up at, like, noon, hung over, and tells me she won't be going. Fine, I guess. Needless to say, I didn't bother keeping the appt. after she told me that. Why bother? Just a stupid check-up. The only reason I was even up to going was for the possibility of getting back on meds, and now that's not a possibility. But anyway...she told me that soon she and my dad will buy a car, and after that they'll take me to see a different dr. Problem is, she didn't say around when that'll be. So now, I'm stuck with absolutely no help for my depression. I don't know what they expect me to do in the meantime, especially when things are only getting increasingly worse. I guess I'll just have to make-do with nothing. *Sigh* How come this kind of **** always happens? Why do people always back out of their promises? I ****ing hate being dependent on other people to get me places and do things for me. If only I were 18 and had a car. Then I could make my own damn appt. and actually keep it.