I am not forcing anyone to talk to me -- just checking if anyone has a similar experience.

Perhaps someone who is 19 right now can learn from my situation.

One of the reasons young people sacrifice themselves is that they do not realise they have limitations. I have decided to go along with my parents wishes, but in four years (1993) I will become a great writer. By early 2014 I will be a capitan of a space mission -- by that time space flight will be routine.