Hi all.

It's been a long time since I posted here; things have been really busy. I moved out of home, got a new apartment (have been trying to take care of myself alone), got a boyfriend, started school, and adopted new pets.

Recently I've been going through a very serious and anxiety-provoking legal matter, and it has brought up a lot of bad memories from my past.

I was so overwhelmed with the stress and fear of the situation that I made the stupid mistake of reading a triggering article. I was upset, got even more upset, and burned and cut myself again.

I am so angry and disappointed in myself for breaking my promise to myself and another. I am frustrated, angry, and feeling helpless and hopeless.

All I want to do is do it again, and again, and again. I feel like I opened the floodgates. I don't know what to do.