Emotional after therapy session today. I've got a list of tasks from therapy, none are about therapy, they are all either about managing risk or telling my GP stuff. I get the feeling the therapist is about to finish our sessions next time at the 6 week review. All we have done so far is risk management and today she gave me a little talk about the remit of her service being tightly defined and not being about long term risk management and if I can't continue in therapy then it isn't because I've failed it is just isn't right for me at the moment. Hmmm, as every other service has knocked me back I don't know how I'm supposed to get help. I have worked so hard at not giving in to any of the urges either sui, self harm or whatever. I have tried to show that although I'm plagued by these ideas I will stay safe for as long as it takes. How can I not take it personally if the therapist can't work with me? Perhaps I'm being overly anxious here, perhaps I've misread all the signals.