I'm surprised at the level of expectation on this board - we see so many posts where members feel dreadful and hopeless for having relapsed when it's a big part of the whole process. Most of us can never expect to cease cutting forever. The emphasis should be on reducing self injurious episodes not totally eliminating them. You went 6 months and that's truly commendable and you were triggered by a very justifiable urge. What work is being done on your abuse issues? I also feel it was ill advised of your psychiatrist to tell you to celebrate being clean for 6 months - that places a lot of unnecessary pressure on you to confirm to her expectations for recovery. Remember, you've taken a slight detour - you haven't fallen off the tracks completely. Good luck.