Thank you for your insightful response. Yes, and we dated for 8 years before we marriage. It was a wonderful time in our lives. I characterize it as young love, day's filled fun and sharing the world and its potential together.

I believe the onset of separate lives started right before the birth of our 3rd. It was about then that our differences in parenting styles were fully realized. The more she made children her career, the more I made work a priority (or vise-versa).

I agree with you, in that I was never too impressed with counseling sessions. However, it did help to provide a conduit for communication between us, in the end my wife gave up on the sessions.

Am I spiritual? Yes. My wife, probably a bit less. However, we practice our spirituality quite independent of each other, that is an interesting observation, I've never really thought about that.

Today, I have lost hope. Given up. Been here too many years and too many times. I feel defeated. Not able to invest again. Ready to move on. To go home (I travel quite a bit) is Hell on earth. At home, I am alone, sleep alone, wake up alone, just alone and wondering why I still support this misery when there is so much more I could be doing with my life if I just move on already.

Thanks again,