So I agree the pepper spray is not a good idea. I actually don't feel too worried about seeing him, but I wonder if I should be preparing or planning somehow to minimize the risk of having psychosis? I thought the pepper spray might give me a feeling of security, but I agree the risk of using it would be too great.

Sometimes I feel perfectly normal like right now, but other times I feel that my friend is conspiring against me using magic or ESP (even though he lives 1000 miles away from me). Then those feelings go away after a day or two and I feel normal.