I hate it I am hurting so much and it is because I care to d.. much about family and friends. If I could just turn these feelings off or at least live moment by moment I think I would be better off.

It is very possible in the near future someone close to me is going to try and manipulate me in to a bunch of things I am not really going to want to do. It makes me very mad but this is very much a part of this persons personality.. To be honest they never have been technically diagnose with BPD but rather confident they do have it. They do have depression, anxiety, and now PTSD (direct from the horses mouth) on those diagnoses. I love them dearly but hate watching them going down the wrong path. And for me personally it just makes my depression and anxiety so much worse.

Anybody have some tools I can use to protect myself without hurting those involved????