You're 44 and have no motivation to change because your parents give you everything you want and need in life. Ok, so what is your problem? I think I fail to see it. The desire to change comes from adversity or struggle or something NOT SO GOOD! You have no reason to want to change, so you're going to go along with the status quo from here until....? One day you'll figure out that you need to be your own person. You'll cut those apron strings and go out and life your own life. Until then, this is your life. Learn to love it.