I suspect my partner has mixed episodes and it has been a real roller coaster ride for the past 2 years. He cycles every7 day or so. I have been doing lots of reading and I myself have Dep/Anxiety (Prystique). His angry outbursts and verbal assaults have gotten to the stage I am starting to bottle things up and it is so tempting to become someone I am not just to keep the peace. I did this to myself many years ago in a relationship with and alcohol/weed addict and it took me years to find myself again. I constantly struggle between "Be yourself and if he gets angry bad luck" and "just shut up and take it and be submissive, it will be easier".

How do you be true to yourself?