Thank you! Really - both of you. I know that this is not the most attention-grabbing piece of forum literature, but it really did help to get it all out. Even if no one gives a s**t (which they don't - and that is not only fine, it's what I expect because any realistic, logical person would not assume that whatever they are going through matters to anyone but themselves), it still helps to put it into words that will be seen and possibly understood by other human beings.

And, amazingly, a few people actually care about someone who is really trying to fight their inner demons instead of continually b**ching about them.