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Originally Posted by MotownJohnny
I had a horrible experience this morning - about the closest thing to a true "back in the moment" flashback I ever had. Because it's October 1st - the anniversary of the day I went back to work 2 years ago. Said something about it being an anniversary of sorts to someone this morning, and that got me going back in my mind to the events of 2 years ago. Before I hardly had time to think, the old, familiar feeling of panic and terror began to well up, and I had pretty close to a full-blown panic attack. In a public place yet. It wasn't pretty.
IT was weird because it seemed so fresh and vivid in my mind, like what I had for lunch that day, etc. The whole day is SO vivid, from the morning until night. And it really was terrifying, because I was so afraid I was going to get caught and "outed" over what really happened.
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It's ok Mowtown, when that happens you have an opportunity to work through it with "much more knowledge and ability" in the now than you had back then. It is not taking place because you did anything wrong either, you just have not processed it "yet" and you do have "more" going on for you "now" then at that time and you have to slow down and acknowledge it with "yes, that did happen, but it's not now, not today, I am fine, I understand better and am healing". You just have to let is pass and "self sooth and comfort yourself", you know how to do that, you know you don't need to feed into it anymore either.
