For about two years I had a psychiatrist who was so kind and helpful and would see me for an hour and I became very attached. He was like no one I'd ever met before and knew how to talk to me. It was the only time I did not feel alone. I carried his voice with me in my head because it was so comforting and helped me get through the days. I wasn't in love with him but I cared for him deeply because he is a good man and we connected. Then two years ago he moved on. I have been devastated ever since. I miss him so much and can no longer carry his comforting words with me because it's just repetition and it makes me sad and pathetic that I can never talk to him again. I feel like a loved one died. I can't tell anyone this because it is embarrassing to be so attached. I'm 48, fer cryin' out loud. I still cry about it and everyday think about what feels like a colossal loss in my life. I've never been able to afford a therapist and really need one but there is no way for that to happen. I'm on disability for bipolar disorder and there just aren't any programs for us here. The psychiatrist that took his place quit after I saw her a few times and only saw me for ten or fifteen minutes which was useless and she obviously didn't care. Now there is no replacement likely for her and nowadays they don't seem to talk to you anyway. There are no other psychiatrists in the area so we are all S.O.L. in this town.
Has anyone else lost a therapist or psychiatrist that they were attached to and how do you get over the grief when they leave?