Sorry to whoever reading this, but it's a long rant. I know, it's annoying when I complain all the time even when there are people 1000x off worse than me but I just can't deal with being a failure anymore. I can't deal with the pain inside. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I do anything right? Why can't I just do normal activities and have a normal social life like people my age do? Why do I have to suffer and die while everyone else enjoys their lives? I'm the least social person in the world probably. I can't make friends, I can't enjoy being around people, I can't think of anything to say. It's probably the worst trait in the world to have, having social anxiety and being an introvert. You can't perform at work, you have no good ideas or anything to offer, and no one likes you. I'm so plain and boring to be around. The only words I know how to use are "yeah" and "ok". I can't have any type of social media because there's nothing interesting about me and I have no friends. I would probably end up in a crisis situation if I created a twitter or instagram. I can't do this, I just can't. It's a chronic condition, where most people never fully recover or get over. Hell, I'll probably get fired because of my ****** social and work skills. I can't even perform the simplest tasks without ****ing them up. Again, what the hell is wrong with me? Was I born retarded or something? Was I born with no mental ability to have something to say or to do? I'm no extrovert or leader. The world wants those kinds of people, and I'm not one of them and never will be, so I'm done.