Hi,

I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder about 6 years ago and have been on medication ever since, also been seeing a therapist. Just over a month ago I found out that I was misdiagnosed and that in fact I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I researched this and read about how there generally isn't a recommended medication to treat this personality disorder. So I stopped taking the medication a month ago. I was too afraid to tell my Psychiatrist or therapist as I am pretty sure they would say not to. I stopped it abruptly.

I have felt better this last month than I have in years and am noticing how I seem to be thinking more clearly and that my behaviour is more stable and generally better. I am also managing to deal with my emotions better and haven't had a 'freak' out all month. I am also noticing how much better I am coping with my 2,5 year old daughter. I feel more present with her and I am calmer too and I don't get bored while playing with her like before.

I just read a few articles online which say how dangerous it is to stop psychiatric medications abruptly and without guidance from a doctor. I haven't experienced any major side effects besides a headache which is manageable. I'm just starting to worry now that I have made a mistake. I still feel fine, better than ever, but I am worried that things will get really bad like I read online.

Should I go back on my meds? Or has it been long enough that I have been off them - so if I'm ok now then I will not have a major down spiral.