I can relate totally to what you said. I have been in a depression ranging from mild to severe since June. No meds seem to help. Work is a nightmare. I also cry in the bathroom or sometimes in my social worker's office (I am a special ed teacher and every classroom has a social worker) when she is not there. But I have to go back out and pretend everything is ok.

I am also in school as well which just adds to the stress. I knew doing school and work was going to take me down but I didn't have a choice if I wanted to keep my job. Now I really wouldn't care if they fired me.

The only thing I suggest is do what I do every day which is take some time for yourself. Reward yourself for getting through the day since it was much harder for you than most other people. I try to remember to do this.

Just know you're not alone. I feel your pain. I hope our depressions do not last a year this time.