Thanks, Zapot7,
It's just good to hear from someone who has experienced this!
I was truly in love with this man, and he told me emphatically that he wasn't "in love" with me! It was so humiliating! I'm 56 now, and will probably not venture into another relationship ...ever...so humiliating!
I think it's my mind trying to come to terms with it.
I've truly punished myself for my foolish behavior! I look in the mirror at myself and see how I've aged, let myself go, and been reclusive. The only positive in my life is my pursuit of my art study. I will probably never, ever put myself in the position fo being hurt again!
Patty