I know what you're getting at lol And I know you're right, it's not logical but I think this may be where my narcissistic traits come in. I'm special. I'm clearly a terrible person these others are not. (No, I don't know why I'm more terrible than them. I just am.)


My own parents didn't love me. There must be something wrong with me for my own parents to hate me? (I know, I know. They have their own issues.)

I also know that the reason other people have used/abused me is because I'm broken and broken attracts abusers but it seems no matter how much I go over this in my head, no matter how little sense my feelings make I just can't shake this feeling that there is something inherently wrong with me.