Thanks, Pat,
But, you know, the dreams are not that painful....just a vallidation of what I experienced. In my long experience, I usually never dream of someone unless I really knew them, and they were part of my life.
It's good to have feedback from someone like you, Pat, who was there from the initial stage, the beginning of this experience, and to know you have experienced something similar.
I don't feel it is going thru it twice, being much stronger now/ I just see it, like I said before, as my mind working it out.
Dreams are mysterious, and. thankfully, don"t make me want to contact him again.
It's also sad and humiliating that I continued to contact him for so long, with my pitiful emails...cloaked as "just friendly" contacts...still trying to make it right and not so humiliating!
I'm past that now! I received much help here, but it still took long past the help to finally come to terms with it.
I think there are others here who are experincing the same, though different, circumstances....It takes time, precious time.
Love
Patty