I've been seeing my T for about 3 months. We've talked quite a lot about the child neglect I experienced and about how hard emotions are for me. I find it much easier to talk about the past and really hard to talk about the present. I feel that given what we have discussed, and how hard I find it to talk to her, she must think how could I possibly do the job I do (which involves dealing with people, caring for others and being assertive) and that I must be terrible at it.