Talk to me if you want to! I'd be really happy to lend you an ear/shoulder/tissue. I don't know how to describe my social situation. I guess that has something to do with my mood and also who the others are in a group setting. With some, I am quiet as a mouse and painfully awkward; yet others know me as the crazy joker. I can even present drastically differently to the same person on different occasions and they always get shocked by the contrast.

I have 2 best friends whom I share 90% of my issues with. They're good at listening but I feel like I'm burdening them with my problems. I'm not a good listener IRL and don't always provide the best advice either, which I hate about myself. It's good that you have 3 friends - I personally prefer to have a few close ones than a bunch of hi-bye ones.

It's horrible that I can't even turn to my T on bad days. I don't contact her outside sessions except for scheduling because I just feel like I annoy her and she probably dislikes me but can't say it. When I do see her, the words don't come out.