Teaching is fabulous. I mean it. I love it. I can teach special ed. and general ed. I really love the special ed. though. I teach behavior/emotional disorder kids lately. They are a handful for also very enjoyable. The only part of teaching I do not like is the constant bothering of the higher ups with their stupid continual observations (they do it to all teachers). The paperwork alone to have them come do an observation takes hours. Then after the principal comes - you have to do paperwork again for 30 days later when the head of the department comes. Then you have to meet with them individually to discuss your lesson/teaching and then you have to meet with them after they observe.....then they meet.....then they give you a "grade"...then you have to meet the principal to get your grade. I have always gotten proficient - no one ever gets excellent. I would hate to be the teacher who gets unsatisfactory or needs improvement - because you have to do it all over again and again until you get proficient. I just want to teach not play silly games.....all that time spent preparing and discussing and meeting for observation takes time away from preparing lessons. It's the politics of it all that stinks. I love the kids though and have an excellent time with with them in the classroom. You will love the teaching part of it........
I have given myself several diseases and issues with my body also. When I was getting the tests done for the heart they gave me a medication that slows your heart rate down and my mind told me that it was giving me a heart attack. The nurse was like ???? it slows your heart down. In my head though my heart was pounding and it felt like it was. So, she took my bp and stuff and it was all normal. I felt foolish. haha.
If it is your medication at least you have a "diagnosis". It's embarrasing when you say you have all these problems and then everything comes up negative (that has been my case). Hopefully you start to feel better..........and stay off the internet to find out what is wrong with you. I would be 6 feet under by now if I kept doing that myself. I had every disease or problem out there all summer long. It was my doctor who said stop looking at stuff on the internet call me instead. haha. Like I said before if it wasn't for this kind and understanding and compassionate dr. - I would still probably have anxiety issues. Make sure you follow up with the dr. because it really does ease your mind and take loads of pressure off to know if it is something or nothing.
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Originally Posted by atam90
Shining, I am quite sorry to hear that! I do hope that your current job in secondary education is fulfilling in other ways for you! I do hear plenty about this kind of thing, makes me a little nervous to be pursuing teaching myself. But it's something I've been wanting to pursue for a while. Anyway, thank you for sharing your story with me. Makes me feel a little better about the way I've been feeling lately. I can't tell you how many diseases I've "diagnosed" myself in the past few weeks, certainly not helped by my current job. Stomach pains have become possible bowel perforations, headaches have become possible aneurysms, leg pains have become DVT...not good.
As an update, though, I did actually see a doctor today. Yesterday, I started having twitching in my one leg that went on almost constantly for several hours, and it scared me. My boyfriend had been urging me to go all along, and I've been meaning to establish myself as a patient at a new practice, so I took the opportunity. I actually called earlier today and they squeezed me right in. Anyway, as it turns out the twitching may be anxiety but it may also be due to antibiotics I recently took. I just finished up a course of Flagyl for a C. diff. infection, and the onset of most of my physical muscle symptoms (and even my high anxiety) seemed to correlate with beginning the medication. It turns out that Flagyl can cause peripheral neuropathy in the form of numbness, pins and needles, weakness, and apparently muscle twitches. Not a common side effect by any means, but still possible. He tested my strength and my reflexes, which were apparently all okay. So he seemed to be pretty confident that it may be due to the medication, and that it should subside when my nerves recuperate. *knock wood*. He did tell me I should come back if the symptoms don't subside, though. I guess that is the only part that still leaves me feeling somewhat nervous. He did say a range of things can cause that, from nutrient deficiencies to thyroid problems to undiagnosed Lyme's disease. Obviously my main fear was muscular disease or motor neuron disease. It still is in the back of my mind, unfortunately, because there was no definitive tests performed to prove otherwise.
Going to the doctor did help give at least some piece of mind, though.
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