I've looked more into borderline traits, beyond the online test, and I think I have more connection with those traits than I do with bipolar. I remember specific instances where I have changed moods constantly within a day, and I have a lot of trouble with losing relationships, to the point I react with escalated emotions. I'm going to talk to a psychiatrist today to see if they can evaluate me/give me some more information on what I could have. It's been a long road for me in terms of mental illness... but I appreciate all of your comments and help.