So, my mother made the decision to cause me lifelong pain when I was six. Ever since the divorce, I've had many "mother figures" step in on my life, but all of them either disappeared after a couple of weeks or tried to control ever aspect of my life. I've grown to distrust and even still feel attracted (platonically) to women.

I'm 19, and during my high school time I experienced transference with a few of my female teachers...but I really strongly wished for one certain teacher to step in and be the mother who was never there. It's ridiculous and I've never admitted it to her, because I'm scared and embarassed, but lately I've had a lot of dreams where she swoops in and fixes all my problems.

I can't confront my mom about my issues with her...I have a therapist, but I don't feel the same way, and I do talk to her about these issues. I don't have any other female family members.

I guess what I'm asking is...what do I do??