It's been great reading these.
One time I was accidentally triggered; went into instant hand over hears, eyes closed, shaking my head left to right, rocking back ad forth/can't sit still mode. I did walk away feeling a bit dramatic and she was very obviously shocked (i'm pretty unemotional) and I could tell she didn't really know what to do.
I like to flick my hair bands on my wrist and once I accidently flung one across the room to her side haha. She laughed though and kindly picked it up and returned it. Then it later flicked again, she didn't notice, and I pulled the exorcist and leaned as far over as I could to grab it without getting off of the couch. Again, she thought it was funny.
And then of course, I do the whole hiding behind the pillow thing. It's crazy because she's point out that I do it, I know I do it and try not to but as soon as something where I need a boundary comes up - so does the pillow wall. It's uncontrollable!
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