just found out I have been restructured out of a scrapbooking group that I use to hang out with and scrapbook with atleast once a month because the woman who organizes the monthly events for some reason does not like me . I have never done anything to this woman except exist. and then people wonder why I just don't want to exist any more. I really don't.i cant stop crying and I just hate me again. I hate this fing world so so much. everything is a mess