i really do wish i didn't exist at all .i know i am way to intence here for people but so much is going on here . so much i don't even say here because i don't want people here to hate me also .but it feels like i just have nothing good left . at least it took a year for this person to realize how expendable i am. i went to a concert with my BFF and the new friend she is trying to impress. and she treated me like i was vermin all night so screw her also . my son seems to be messed up. failed at that ,go figure. and i hate my husband because i cant off myself as long as he is in my life and that makes me so bitter .