hey. is it angry or is it... (at base)... fear?

i'm %#@&#! terrified of some of the stuff i emailed my t. and 'cause i'm scared i get all angry with myself for having disclosed so much.

i think what can be hard about disclosing early is that there isn't this background of trust so it is much harder to try and reassure oneself that ones t will likely take it really well and be pleased that you trusted them enough to tell them.

but then i think what can be hard about savin them up and disclosing later is that one cares a whole heap about what they are going to think of you.

terrifying either way.

i'm proud of you.
take extra special care.