Thanks both for your kind words....my virtual friends....

I was just journaling and it cracks me up when I think of what I was just writing....I was thinking.....what are the things I'm not gonna share with her....remain secret.....lemme have a stash of 'secrets' I will never tell her about.....so what am I gonna have in that stash....? Reminds me of little kids, who, before the playdate arrives....the little 4-year old hides her favorite toys in the closet.....
What is it about self-disclosing to t that makes me so 'fearful'? Is it about losing control? I'm scratching my head trying to make sense out of my 'maladaptive behavior/thinking'.....