I just need to "add" something else to remember about "Post Traumatic Stress" here.
People forget the "stress" element of PTSD, and that it is a "stress breakdown".
Often a person can experience a flashback or have an onset of "horrible or crippling anxiety" and not know why. Well, it is important to pay attention to whatever is "stressing" you at the time, because that is what brings on all the other problems that present with PTSD.
It isn't "life" that people want to escape, it is the stress.
For myself, what happened to me created a tremendous amount of stress both financially as well as stressing about "what damage was really there" and in my challenge there was a lot of damage and a lot of expense to me as far as financial cost to discover and tend to the damage, but also how it damaged my business and entire way of life at the time. That "stress" has been ongoing for me because I still have to stress about all the debt I have to keep paying on, still stress about the damaged animals I have to still care for, still stress because of the lawsuit I have been stuck in for 7 years and counting, stressing because my ex-lawyer failed to interview witnesses when these witness could remember, not seven years later as my new lawyer has been trying to do and people struggling now "so many years later" to remember. Oh, I go on and on, however, I have a lot of "ongoing stress" taking place in my life.
So, it is important to realize that often what triggers you is not because of "bad memories", but whatever is causing you to "stress in the now" and doing your best to try to do things that eliminate it if you can. It is "ok" to take whatever steps you need to do in order to reduce "stress' in your life, and that is no one's business but "yours" too.
When PTSD is in the initial stages that can be extremely confusing and debilitating, it is often very "costly" in all kinds of different ways. Often we do whatever we have to do in order to "survive" somehow, and that is what we are designed to do in order to thrive.
There are "losses" that take place, that is just the way things role with PTSD and as the dust begins to settle, we do our best to address the stress that remains in whatever way we need to reduce it. This is how we survive, and always have survived as human beings. It is important to remind yourself that "it is ok to be a survivor", because it really is.
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