The fact that this is happening on your first visit is hard to believe, it's hard to believe because not only is it a clear ethical violation for him to let you put your hand in his crotch and hold you, he's not even taken the time to "groom" you as most predators do... Leading me to believe either you're pulling our leg or this man is highly dangerous and unstable. Perhaps he's already in a lawsuit and going to lose his license? It just seems clearly unethical but even more reckless than any normal therapist abuse I've read about. I'd get out of there before the transference kicks in.