You certainly have my support, Ambra. The whole subject of termination and dependency is a conflictual place above all others. I think you should follow your deepest feeling, whatever it is. And tell the T as much of what you said in your post as you can. I'm no professional, but I've been in that ambivalent place where you are, where you're afraid to speak out or demand. It sounds like you're not ready to end therapy, or it wouldn't be any problem to come out and say so. Your therapist knows that, too., I'm sure. Try not to ever burn bridges and say things that sound final until you absolutely know you mean it. Growing to the place where you can be outspoken with T and others is part of the therapy process and sounds like you have a way to go yet. That's what I would decide, anyway.