I personally think you flirt with suicide a bit , Let me explain .. Your always fiddling with your meds and not taking them consistantly. So your not sleeping the long and you go with out quality consistant sleep your going to keep flying down the road to a possible explosion. Your not taking care of yourself on many levels and your not able to handle all the roadblocks your hitting .

Why not get help? IP isnt terrible it helps you get out patient services sooner. Im sure the IP social worker is going to help you get Miguel registered into school. I honestly think that you being IP and around other people that have many of the same struggles as you will help you ,, Kinda like "here" but real life

I honestly think that if you go to the ER and are completely honest no glossing things at all , you will find a lot of help that is going to help this moving in process much smoother.

You owe it to yourself to feel better and you own it to your family to get healthy.