Hi sinking,

So sorry you're feeling like this
That "it feels unfair" bit..........I'd say it is unfair, and you don't deserve it.
But talking to those people about how you're feeling, doesn't need to mean that you're "blaming them", or that you're going to be making them miserable, does it??
I mean you've got a right to put your views across, they're important. And if "those" people don't know how you're feeling/what you're thinking then that kind of stops them/you all from working on resolving those issues.
Afterall maybe they're misinterpreting things or not properly understanding?? And you say you love them, so chance that they love you too?? Even if it's not being shown as much. And if they love you then they'd want to be helping make things a bit better for/with you, if they knew.........maybe???
So perhaps it's about the way you tell them, ask them for support??? Worth thinking about???

But maybe it's worth trying to bring some more understanding/supportive people into your life too?? They will be out there
Because you don't deserve the pain, you know that anyway, right??

Alison