This week at therapy, T suggested that my inner child could act a little more adult. I do have an inner child and inner fantasy world, but I'm pretty smart at living real life, too. I have a strong transference on T that I admitted last month and really touchy about it yet.
Near the end of the session, I got filled with anger at T and said to her that my inner child is very upset about her mentioning to be more adult. About then I began to feel very spacey, like something was pulling me away from real life, kind of like a tractor beam on Star Wars. It seems actually like I'm being dragged mentally into a no-where place. I'm not starting to act out like a child, but can't think about the real world either. I kept thinking I've just got to keep in the real world because I have to get into the car and have to drive home in traffic.
I was trying really hard to stay in real life so I could get home ,and don't know where I would have gone if I had let loose. It was at the end of my hour, and T asked if I could make it, tho I don't know what would have happened if I couldn't. I had a very hard time remembering how to pay at the secretary's desk.
Do any of you do something like this or know what it is that's happening?