Two days ago I was arguing with my dad and screamed at him. I decided to post this in the PTSD section because I have PTSD and thought maybe this was linked to it somehow. I feel so so so bad for screaming at my dad because he is old. he's always been there for me and he's a great dad but we were arguing because of the dogs being in the house and I'm severely allergic to them - I know, it's stupid. I wrote about this on another forum and everyone said "GROW UP! MOVE OUT!" and made me feel even worse. I called him mean names and got irate. I can't believe I can lose my temper like that and have a full on adult temper tantrum. I'm not happy with my life right now and I have been experiencing a lot of frustrations with my personal life lately.
My dad even said during the fight that if I don't like the dogs in the same room as me, I need to move out. I know he's right but it made me so mad because ever since I was 13 when he owned 6 dogs I feel like he's been putting them before my quality of life and health.
He only has 3 now but they aren't trained and they're allowed to do anything they want like ruin the carpet or be obnoxious and annoying, constantly barking, etc.
I feel so bad about calling my dad those horrible names that I've apologized to him twice now. He said "I've already forgotten about it so you should too."
I always worry about losing him because he has a lot of health problems, plus the fact that I'm trying to move out this year - I know I won't be around him much longer and just losing it like that made me feel awful.
I feel like I'm not the daughter he deserves.